Pareenita

Yesterday I watched Parineeta..hmmm and in short I loved it. I am stilling living
the moments of Parineeta.I have rarely seen any movie twice but this is a kind of a movie
which I am gonna watch for the second time and pay for it as well. It is a beautifully made movie
with every scene,set,sequence,every movment speaking out.I had read the novel writen by
Sarat Chandra Chaterjee in Bengali a long time back. At that time I was smitten by it
with its sensiblities and the description by which the writer had woven the inner turmoil of
the three main characters. In writing its easier to portray the though process of a person
but to bring that in the celluloid is a tough task.When I first saw the promo of the movie in
the television from that day I was waiting for it to be released.And to be frank I was
not disappointed. I was mesmerrized by the poetic lines that the director created with
the scenes.It is simply beautiful.The beauty of Calcutta(sorry Kolkata) is captured
by the camera in the form of the morning of Victoria,the sun set of Hoogly,night by the
bank of Hugly,the phuska(pani-purie). I was really taken back to a age which is a past now.
The director has portayed with agony of the charecters with the use of color and music which
gives the movies a mystic look, fresh as a moring walk in Victora. Vidya Valan in the lead role
is sensible and sweet. She is a woman that every man wants in his life,a fiercly passionate
sweetheart of her lover but also as practical as the Head mistress.I have seen the best
acting of Saif Ali Khan in this movie. And in a short role Sanjay Dutt dizzle. I dont go into details
as u can read it in so many reviews of the movie. But This Is A Must Watch Movie.
wow what a evening it would be with Tash(Cards),Pakoda,your sweetheart and a bet of a
lovely evening and a evening by the side of Hoogly....I miss it :-(
BTW Parineeta means the Complete Woman ( or a married woman)

Bunty Aur Babli

Yesterday I watched 'Bunty Aur Babli' our home remake of 'Catch Me If You Can'. As it is a remake of a superb Hollywood movie so here are added some Hindi masala like Babli is thrown in.It is not a brain teaser like Catch Me If you Can, but rather a sweet romantic movie.The first half is good but once Amitabh is introduced the movie is bogged down. May be by its own star weight.I really dont understand why Bollywood movies add so many of the songs. Its not that I am a big fan of Hollywood movies and dont like that song and dance malodrama of Bollywood movies.It is not like that. I really dont have problem all those beautifully crafted songs in some beautiful scenes.But it should match with the plot. Here in this movie the Chor and police meets together and start dancing behind Aisharya Rai..Its absurd. Again Amitabh is obscenly loud. A good actor wasted in a non fitting role.Anyways a movie you can enjoy with your friends/boyfriend/girlfriend. I like the movie and enjoyed it...There is great chemistry between Abhishek and Rani........

A little Though

There are so many things to be done. Can I afford to get bogged down by the small hurdles? No I cannot. Like a phonix I will rise again and again from the ashes and soar to the sky. I am really unfortunate in some of my decissions. I dont regret them,till now i have learnt quite deal from them. One of the truest fact of life is that 'There is no God'. we ourselves are master of our destiny. There is nothing written previously or decided by anybody that this person is going to be like this and he/she is going to face this and this problems.Its so uncertain. And because of this uncertainity people have created God, so that we can think in some bad moment of ours 'God is with me, he will help me'.The creation of God is also because of this purpose and also to maintain some kind of rules in people.If we would not have believe or fear of God we would have done anything under the sun. Because rather than the fear of Law its the fear of God that makes us not doing many-many things.This believe is necessary.Otherwise we will really ruin the rules of living.The teaching of our parents or Teachers are very important for us.I remeber always being told by my parents/teacher ' Dont do this dirty work, God is watching and you will be punished'. This is very true. Not in the sense that God will punish us but because our work only curve our destiny.If I do anything bad I will surely going to get remorse.For example suppose today I kill somebody(Extreme one), I may not be caught by the police and I may not be punished but the remorse I will be feeling will be great. To have a happier life we will have to go by the path that is socially acepted. This is very important for our own happiness(very selfish ha ;-) ).By the norms of society I am not talking about casteism or religion or anything but about the very human values.And one thing is certain there is no rebirth.Whatever u have to live, whatever you have do you have to do in this life only...Thats the truth,You believe or not!!!!
My discovery:-
One of the reason India is underdeveloped is that " We are so much bothered about our Marraiges,Families that we can hardly can work anything productive. For most of us its our aim is to get a good job. And once we get a good job the worry of our parents start 'Get him married'. Consent marriage(Love marraige) is strictly no no. It has to be parents choice.And then the whole family drama will start. This is sick. If someones want to mary somebody then the whole world comes after you. Why marry her? Why love her? She is such a slut!!!. Why you have to marry him? How much is he earning? Which caste he belongs to? No No....Why cant we live in peace? You love somebody marry him. You dont love him say i dont love you.Let our parents allow us to decide for ourselves. Right from what to read to where to go we are really not bound to be told by somebody.They also have so many important things to be done rather than worry about these things...There is a nation to be built ! "
How is my discovery?????

Six Thinking Hat

Few days back I had to undergo a training on Processes. There the lady who was taking our tarining told us about six thinking hat.I was very much impressed.So there is a way to take a good decission.Because I know most of us take decission as and when basis.That is Red Hat thinking. and when we think leisurly about our decessions we repent.
Six Thinking Hat is a tool developed by Edward de Bono and is discussed in his book '6 Thinking Hat'
The six thinking hat is something like this-

White Hat: With this thinking hat you focus on the data available. Look at the information you have, and see what you can learn from it. Look for gaps in your knowledge, and either try to fill them or take account of them.
This is where you analyze past trends, and try to extrapolate from historical data.
Red Hat: 'Wearing' the red hat, you look at problems using intuition, gut reaction, and emotion. Also try to think how other people will react emotionally. Try to understand the responses of people who do not fully know your reasoning.
Black Hat: Using black hat thinking, look at all the bad points of the decision. Look at it cautiously and defensively. Try to see why it might not work. This is important because it highlights the weak points in a plan. It allows you to eliminate them, alter them, or prepare contingency plans to counter them.
Yellow Hat: The yellow hat helps you to think positively. It is the optimistic viewpoint that helps you to see all the benefits of the decision and the value in it. Yellow Hat thinking helps you to keep going when everything looks gloomy and difficult
Green Hat: The Green Hat stands for creativity. This is where you can develop creative solutions to a problem. It is a freewheeling way of thinking, in which there is little criticism of ideas. A whole range of creativity tools can help you here.
Blue Hat: The Blue Hat stands for process control. This is the hat worn by people chairing meetings. When running into difficulties because ideas are running dry, they may direct activity into Green Hat thinking. When contingency plans are needed, they will ask for Black Hat thinking, etc.

Black

Now it may be 2-3 month old.But the incident is still fresh in my mind.By now most of the people must have seen the movie 'Black' and some has liked it tremedously and some has disliked it like anything.I like this movie like anything.The kind of emotion that I experienced while I watched the movie I never felt before. I felt helpless while watching the little blind and deaf girl grow. How would be the world of a person who cannot see anything, who cannot say anything. How will she understand what is color. It is really moving. I never really thought much about the world of the people who are unable to hear and see like other people.While watching the movie I felt like I go right now and help her.The first time when she feels water and when she start realizing what her teacher was trying to do to her was so moving that my heart cried.The acting of the young girl I appreciate more than that of Rani Mukherjee. Rani was superb too.But I have a big complaint.Its for all those people who are well educated but dont know the value of education. There were a few boys and gals sitting behind me in the theater while watching the movie. It was the scene when Michele holds the hand of her teacher and wants a kiss from him. The guys and gals behind me erupted in big laugh and started passing luid remaks. I really felt sad. Here was the scene where a helpless girl wants to experience the womanhood and here were some other people who are laughing, I dont know on what, may be on their own womanhood or manhood.It was a really pathetic site to see how some people can react in that manner. we have shaped our thinking or emtotions based on all the C grade movies and cheap magazines and cheap TV serials that we see,and we tend to color everything with our color.Maybe someday we will understand true emotions or may be we will never.......

Pune Roads

The pune roads!!!!!When u go out in the road it feels as if we all are going to somekind of war and nobody has got any time left with oneself.And we all are in the verge of some blood pressure attack.Why we all are so hot and bolied up? Why we are so angry with each other? There the cycle wala is taking a wrong turn u just take ur head out and shout obscenities on him , as if we are just looking out for avenues to let off our frustration. The govt is doing all its best to damage the roads. One day u can see the PMC people blocking a road to lay new pitch on the whole raod, the next day the PMC again dig up that road to repair some sewage and the third day the whole road is made into a drain, because some private operators are digging it to lay cables....Is it funny...Its more than funny..Its a big comedy movie..Every single day I see accidents happening..And govt is saying that Pune is going to be the next IT hub...God save the foreigners who come over here..But cant this state of affairs be changed? Cant all the people or offices make a coordinated effort to resolve all the issues???Would anybody please listen?

Good Old Days

I really miss writing in Assamese, my mother tongue. A few days back I tried writing something, but I could not even write anything. I started my school in a village called Bahalpur, a very remote village by the side of river of Champabati. My father was posted in that village at that time. There was a hillock in the back ground of our house and we sometimes used to go there in Sundays with Imaan, our domestic help. I have lots of memory of that place. I was there till I was 7 but still this place occupies a special place in my heart. My elder bro who is elder to me by around 3 years was in the same school. One incident that I remember very well was that I don’t know why but somehow I had fight with a guy from my bro’s class. It was a village school, though we were young in age but most of the boys and girls were not that young. So the guy with whom I had the fight he was very big( I don’t how he would look now but at that time everybody else like my bros friends and all looked so big :-)). During the fight I don’t remember how it really reached that stage, he started beating me. From nowhere my bro came and he pushed off that guy and he got into fight with that guy… I was really surprised. He is the kind of guy who used to talk very less and he always used to have fight with me on some matter or other. But I savor that moment. Nowadays we don’t fight. But when I was with him in Bangalore, if in some moment I used to feel bad about something that he said I used to think about that moment……
I was real brat in that time. And I like exploring things. Once some construction work was going on the river and they constructed a temporary bridge over that river with bamboo which was used by the laborers. One day I crossed the river by that bridge with a friend of mine. My mother would have got shock of her life if she would have seen me there, in the middle of the river. But it was fun.
As I said we used to go to that hill in our backside. I have quite a few good memories to share. I will write about that some other day……
Good Old Days :-)

College Dreams

The dreams woven by the silken thread
Sitting by the side of the college lake
In the evening of everyday
Sometimes wake me up from the deep slumber..
Those magical days,
waking up in the morning and
crowding around the only two basins(that privilage was also after 2 years in the hostel),
and then waiting for a bathroom to get empty,
and then queing up in the Hall for breakfast
and running to room with a glass full of Tea
and attending the first class always late by 15 minutes
coming back to the same hall for lunch and
then deciding not to go back to class
Playing cricket or football in the eveningand
then going for the tea in the Tea Stalls infront of college
and again
dreams woven by the silken thread
Sitting by the side of the college lake
In the evening of everyday...................

Hazaron Khwahishen Aisi

On last Firday ie 22nd April I watched the movie 'Hazaron Khaise Aisi'.The plan of watching the movie happend quite interesting way as well.That day I was in no mood of watching.But the roomates of mine had some other plan. They just went to the theatre and got tickets for all. I really enjoy this feeling of bonhomie of my roomates.Anyway there were actually intesrested in watching another movie, I forgot the movie name, it feature Amitabh Bachan.But they didnt get the ticket for that movie and so bought the ticket of 'Hazaron....'. I didnot have much expectation from the movie and thought it would be of the same genere as other Hinglish movies like 'Chai Pani','My Brother Nikhil' etc(I am not saying anything against these movies. They are great in their own way). So when we sat there to watch the movie at 11.30 my roomate Shalie(Originally Shailendra. I am having five roomates. Quite a big gang. All of us passed out from the same PG Institute, worked together initailly in a start up whose story I will tell later and now all working in big big Software compnaies) was already in wailing 'Yeh bhi koi movie dekhneki time hain .......'(WHat a time to watch movie!!!). As the movie started in black and whilte with the scene of riots one of my roomate shouted ' Arre main toh nahin deraha 100 ruppes' (meaning I am not gonna pay 100 bucks to whoever has done the tickets)..I thought again another political movie on some riots. But as they introduced the characters I felt little bit more interested.Slowly the story unfolded and I was mesmerrized.Here was the story of three persons, one girl and two guys , how their lives grow on the backdrop of the political turmoil of seventies.One character was the son of a Gandhian who was preparing to go abroad for further studies,one was the son of a magistrate who was a communist and the gal was a typical girl from a south indian family. Both the guys used to love the same girl.The girl was impressed by the dreams of the rebel guy who wanted to transform the whole world. While the other guy was busy making his own career.But dont expect a typical ending.I dont tell the whole story becoz to feel the movie you have to watch it. It was an ambitiuos project by the director, Sudhir Mishra. The movie is having too many emotions involved. The emotion of a guy who is not looked after by the father, the emotions of the guy whose father was not a freedom fighter, the emotion of a girl who wanted to be a rebel but married a guy about whom she says 'He is a guy who has everything that a girl can ask for', the emotion of a girl who loves somebody else and inpite of being married still meets her lover secretly, the emotion of the backward people, the emotons of a loving husband,and also a jilted husband, emotion of a heart broken lover who has to help his lost love in almost evey step , even he has to go to rescue the guy who stole his sweetheart, the emotion of a prince whose father was selling the old haveli,the anguish of a freedom fighter whose dream of an independet properous nation has gone sour........................ha....I am tired now.Too many emotions.But it was one of the better movie I have seen recently.

Muse

Through the wind of the thunder there comes a face
A face that is the reality..
I had been waiting for this moment from the infinity
The minutes passing by the river side
and the silent evenings
Passed infront of the thick thoughts
Across the wish rising up to the sky
With a mouthful of sweet nothings
I had alwys been waiting for this moment.
Strange
You have alwys been infront of me
In the downfall from the cilff
and also while rising up to the sun
and also during the swiming in the barrier
And also during the thunder storm..
And also during the hail storm
when we both used to tremble with rage :-)
But I have one complaint
why do u give so much tension to me?
If you give a single call
My heart beat would have been normal
You know that right........
I know that is YOU
and
That is ME
:-)
We are like that only

For U

Sometimes I just want to fly. To the distanat horizon, beyond the line of blue and play with the white dreams.Divorced from the time I want to float around the sky with the birds and land in some distant lake where I can swim with the white cranes. And with them I again want to reach the sky and move to Siberia and play with the white snow. Sometimes I want to be a small child and play around with a tire in hand.Why are they happy all the time?I too want a take a handful of earth in my hand and make sweet nothing with them....I want to splash water to somebody who will be with me....I want to write something stupid on the black slate with white chalks.I want to memorize the rhymes and number tables sitting ny the tree and shouting at the top of my voice...
Sometimes I just want sit idle, doing nothing.Nothing..Nothing is a dreaded word for me.With the experience of complete nothingness in my pocket a few years back I have travelled quite a few blogs. I dont want to go back to nothingness...But still sometimes Nothing is also beautiful.
And sometimes I just want sit beside somebody and take her head in the my shoulders and sit there for thousands of seconds.
I have to do so many things yaaaar...
Lets Go Now..................................................................

The Changed Day

There comes responsiblity. Like in the movie Spiderman(part I) its told "With Every Power Come Responsibility", I am feeling it. But how has it come? Nobody has given me it.Nobody took me to some sacred place and told me that right from now on you are having this and this reponsiblity. I am feeling it spontaneously, an unseen force. The way I was scared when somebdoy took the wrong road. I have full confidence on that person. I know she can take care of herself. I know she is intelligent enough to fend off all the adversaries, but still it is felt..I never felt so grown up earlier.
From tomorrow I will be joining a new commpay and with that there will be the culimination of my sojourn. Of my musings. Life is so fast. Till a few days back all was so foggy.Nothing was clear. And today morning when I woke up I found a new day waiting for me.

Something Absurd

In the darkness of the night when the devil sleeps
Then it creeps thorough the rib case
Rising to the red valves
Trying out to pump out more red liquid.....
Every second,every minute , every hour of the day and the night
It keeps its journey from the toe
To the network of brain tissues
Walking through the puzzled mesh of nerves
it moves to the spine
And then it shrinks and shutters the stomach...
Ha ha ha ha ha
Yeah everybody smiles..
At the slightest pretext I try to flee
from my promise, my commitments
May be all the promises are like that only..
Rising from the strewn leaves
Taking every sweat, making every nerve work
I try to make them glow in the morning sun
But I need your help
I need your help
Why do u flee at the slightest provocation?

Budget

Its my second day in solitude.How was yesterday? It was the Budget day. No? I know it was declared day before yesterday but for me it was yesterday as the Newspaper carried details in yesterdays newspaper. I am not a finance guy. I dont understand much of the details of the finance. I am just interested to know how much the cost of living is going to increase. Like one of my friend who is interested in the Budget because everytime it increases the price of cigarette. Yesterday he was bitter abd telling me that the Paanwala from where he buys his regular cigarette has already hiked the price of the brand of cigarette that he smokes. Its funny :-). Even before the budget is implemented everybody is busy implementing it. I hope every government order work like this! And in this budget apart from the usual thing like subsidy in Fertilizers and every crap like that what I found most amusing the surcharge that Gove is going to levy on any Demand draft, Travellers cheque of 1.0% above Rs10000. That means I have to pay Rs100 for making a dd of rs 10000. Thats apart from the earlier DD charges. Or I will have to pay the same amount if I withdraw the same amount from Bank in a single day. This is absurd. I have to pay for withdrawing my own money! What kind of rule is that?
Ok lets forget the budget now.. We cant do much about it anyway.
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I make my dreams from the hay
When u give me the giggle of the kid
Then I start making my dreams.
When you cry my heart shatter
Like the glass that broke with milk.
Dont cry my life
Crying will not give anything...
Forget the people who give u pain
I am standing in the your front with arms wide open
Come there ... forever

ANGRY?

I am today free from work. For this whole week I dont have office. I have no plan. I want to live the whole week like this. Lets see how many days do I survive without the mundane but accustomed office routine. I couldnot help myself coming to the net cafe just for the habit of surfing the net. How was the night? Dont ask me . I could not sleep. Sometimes I get angry with myself. I cannot explain my thoughts to anybody.
Throughout the night I just played with my dreams
There was friends in the dreams
Who looked so distant.
There was memory
My sweetest leisure
Though I dont play with them.
Why it happens all the time
When I think everything is well settled
There comes somthing
to mock at me, to laugh at me...
I have not done any harm to anybody
I have not stolen anybody's sleep
Then why the world comes up to kill me?
Why??????
Lets forget it
Lets forget it
Lets forget it

Dilemma

Today is the last day in my present organisation. I am feeling so strange. In my career of 3 years I have already shifted 2 companies and joining the third. I am feeling strange.. really strange. My Dad worked in the same orginisation for the 35 years and retired from there. He must never have thought of leaving his Orgnisation even once in his time while working. Am I running after money? No I dont think so. Because more or less you get the same amount wherever you are working for the same experience level. I sometimes think how will be my retirement days. I am working in Software Industry and I have not yet seen anybody who has retired from this industry. Its only around 20 years old industry in India. And nobody has faced the retirement age I think. How will be my or precisely our retirement days. Are not we racing towards a somekind of Uncertainity..I dont know where I will from 5 years from now. Why are in such a state of mind. why nothing is certain. Somewhere I heard change is the part of life. Am I following it blindly and trying to bring in change. I am not confused. I know I am doing it for career advcancement. But somehow I cannot write down somewhere that five years down the line I will be..The dilemma of our time?
I remeber the college days when I was doing my engineering. Those were the days when everyday was filled with new dreams, new hopes. Where have gone all the friends. I remember we all promised that we will meet again. We said that the world is round so it is certain that we will meet each other no matter what happen. Five years have gone by I have not met them. Its so strange, the guy who was my roomate I dont know where he is now. A few days back I got to know from a friend about another friend about his engagement and impending marriage. That guy was very good friend of mine. And I remeber how we used to joke about each others wives..and now somebody is going to go to the altar with somebody without even each others knowledge. Somebody may say thta it is my fault I am not trying to keep in touch..But I know thats not true. I try to get in touch with others whenever I can or whenever I get their contact details..But everybody is busy.
Why are we so busy? Are we going to invent something? No we are not we are busy in our mundane work and I think we are happy with our feeling that we are busy. :-) May be...........

First Day in Blogging

Today I was just passing some idle moments in the company having nothing to do and waiting something to happen. Dont think I am a work less youth having nothing to do and just wasting time on somebody else's expense. I am Highly On Demand Software engineer who has just resigned from the present compnay and waiting to join another. So right now I have lots of time in my disposal. You can say I can do lots of other constructive work like I can prepare for some examination, I can enrich myself technically, I can read some novel etc etc.....But today I dont wanna do anything.. I wanted to strike a conversation with my life but she is also busy..So I am having lots of time with me and thats why discovered this place to write and express myself. So I opened my account and thinking what to write!!
What to write? This is a very puzzling question. I have alwys tried my hand in writing. I have won quite a few prizes in college in writing..and encouraged by this I sent my writings to different national level magazines as well. But I didnot have the luck or precisely the editors didnot recognize a budding writer.
Now again I come back to the point..what to write. I remeber reading one short story in Assames(my mother toungue) written by Shilabhadra where throughout the story the author has tried to discover a single topic for his story. I quite enjoyed it..Or may be influenced by this I am writing this piece..
My boss is calling me know..So next time I will write something really very interesting.. And I will welcome to the exciting world of Bloggers..But what to write??????????