Journey

The journey that I had mentioned in the last post has taken an abrupt halt. The track has been damaged and the driver is not at all sure whether we will be able to resume our journey or not. If the journey is stopped then I will have to track back home on foot. And I know it will be a very difficult journey. These back journeys are always tough and now when the town was so close, it is going to be tougher. It is really strange. Till a few days back I was dreaming about reaching my destination and have a hot cup of tea and take rest. I was thinking so this is the journey of my life, I will not have to take another journey alone. I will just settle down in the city and see the crops growing up, experience the winding road, and so many things. And now it seems I will have to go back wherever I came from. Will I be able to make another journey? I don’t know. I am feeling so tired and fragile. Will I again be making music along the country road, I am not sure.

I have seen so many journeys, some broken down in the middle of the road, some speeding in the break neck speed, some with gentle pace enjoying the country side.

I have always tried to analyze myself. Why I need to take journey am I a journey freak that I need a journey to keep myself going? I think I have found my answer. I really don’t know if I will again resume my journey and reach the destination but I have understood why I need a journey, what makes a journey joyful. In my growing up years I took part in quite a few short journeys. And in none of them I was happy as I was happy this time. It was I who discontinued all those journeys. But this time the case is not so. And I used to think with my kind of mentality how I could be happy in my life, as many of the astrologers’ say that I will lead a very happy life. I was always a rebel, always thinking against the rules. But now I find I am a conformist. And I know I will be happy.